why my life sucks

eggwhite soap does have a good effect. okay. i'll buy one when i get back from america next winter. it seems faraway so let me stop mentioning about next time. why am i so ugly? i ask myself hundred million time but never get an answer because there is no answer. i am not kim tae hee i'm not even near to lee ji su. i have hundreds of complex including longtime complex jaw and skin and height and my thigh.....and calves. my personality for ever... and new complex to say, my nose, and my lip and my face in general, and one of my eyes.............. why am i so hateful to myself? what makes me this full of complex? why don't i love myself? is it that hard? or is it this world which makes me like this? no, i don't blame the world because who decides to make me like this is not the world but me, myself. maybe i just don't know how to appreciate myself, how to value myself, how to love myself.......or let others love myself. ;( it's so sad. from now on, i'm not going to expect anything on my beauty or looks. i'm ugly. that's all. i can never be like lee ji su. because she's so perfect from the birth and i'm not. i am going to try not hating myself but i'm not going to try hard to love myself because i never succeeded on that. i'm going to try hard to live as a nice person who helps others....who doesn't hate others. who doesn't have a bad feeling towards others. i'm going to enjoy swimming because under the water i'm free i don't have to think harder on myself... that's what i'm going to do