Yikes!

Life has been cool so far. I got Lasik surgery and I got new sight. I'm happy as I can be, yet I feel like I'm still missing something very important in my life. But, yeah, I am obviously happier than before when I was absolute blind. Back to the Lasik surgery, it was, oh, shit, scary! I was not even nervous about the surgery. Come on, I've never had any operation or surgery before in my life. Well, except probably when I was really little and had that bruise on my head so that it had to be stitched 12 times. I barely remember the moment of surgery, though. So, it doesn't count as real surgery experience. This apparently was my first time to have something big operation as television drama shows. Going into the operation room, and doctors and nurses all wearing some green or blue gown and mask; that was what the first impression of surgery was. And, I thought, well, it could be fun and exciting somehow. That's why I wasn't nervous at all. Guess what? It didn't last long. I was really nervous when I laid down on the operation bed. It was the scariest time in my life so far. Doctor said I need to keep looking at one razor point and it was really hard when my sight was gone completely. It was all blank with one red radar. I went unsure whether if I was looking still at the point or lost my concentration. Besides of it, it really hurt, especially for the first 2 minutes or so. The worst part is that I could really see what was going on with my own eyes since I still had the vision. But, the surgery was successful, anyway. And, I'm pretty happy about it except I need to take care of my eyes seriously. I might not be allowed to do computer right now. It's been an hour and 28 minutes since I turned on the computer. Gosh, I need a computer.